Time to Live in Reality

I enjoyed being mad and throwing blames at other people, starting commotion, pointing fingers. I laughed at others and make them look even more pathetic than they already are just because again it helps me sleep at night. Movie marathon, nightly trash talking and releasing my anger, yes those things are great relievers but not the cure for this sick cycle.

One of the great tree analysts said it was right in front of us we just chose not to see it. We chose to blame heck, well they're partly to blame too. I was already moving on but the question is, is it really possible not to have any longing for the real and to only keep it for reel?

So I did my own research too, I know I have to see it with my own eyes for me to accept the truth. Make sure that I have digested everything in and eliminated all the possibilities of a real so there wouldn't be anymore room left for delusions. I dunno ask me and I'll say keeping it reel is easier said than done. Well most advices are easier said than done. It's easier for us to say move on but when we're already in the same situation, it's not as easy as how we thought it was.

If it happened twice by the slightest least of temptation then it can happen again no matter how hard you restrain yourself from going beyond your comfort zone. So I don't think I can still take it. I have to, got to and wanted to move on now and leave this insanity behind. It's not my life anyway to begin with.

There were questions of how about our efforts in the past? Now let me ask, are they still worth the effort even if they don't give a damn about how fans feel? There is a saying, "If you can't take the heat, get out of the kitchen." I don't feel any regrets for the things I have done, i voluntarily did them anyway. I guess they're not my happiness anymore so I don't have that motivation anymore to give things without getting in return. As it is, I am only human. If you don't wanna do it then don't. It's as easy as that. I will always cherish the good things that came out of the fans club. But it's definitely time to know my priorities and stop punishing my pride.