Time to Live in Reality

I enjoyed being mad and throwing blames at other people, starting commotion, pointing fingers. I laughed at others and make them look even more pathetic than they already are just because again it helps me sleep at night. Movie marathon, nightly trash talking and releasing my anger, yes those things are great relievers but not the cure for this sick cycle.

One of the great tree analysts said it was right in front of us we just chose not to see it. We chose to blame heck, well they're partly to blame too. I was already moving on but the question is, is it really possible not to have any longing for the real and to only keep it for reel?

So I did my own research too, I know I have to see it with my own eyes for me to accept the truth. Make sure that I have digested everything in and eliminated all the possibilities of a real so there wouldn't be anymore room left for delusions. I dunno ask me and I'll say keeping it reel is easier said than done. Well most advices are easier said than done. It's easier for us to say move on but when we're already in the same situation, it's not as easy as how we thought it was.

If it happened twice by the slightest least of temptation then it can happen again no matter how hard you restrain yourself from going beyond your comfort zone. So I don't think I can still take it. I have to, got to and wanted to move on now and leave this insanity behind. It's not my life anyway to begin with.

There were questions of how about our efforts in the past? Now let me ask, are they still worth the effort even if they don't give a damn about how fans feel? There is a saying, "If you can't take the heat, get out of the kitchen." I don't feel any regrets for the things I have done, i voluntarily did them anyway. I guess they're not my happiness anymore so I don't have that motivation anymore to give things without getting in return. As it is, I am only human. If you don't wanna do it then don't. It's as easy as that. I will always cherish the good things that came out of the fans club. But it's definitely time to know my priorities and stop punishing my pride.

Another Shock Hits You

Well I have written this like 2 days ago, yeah whatever helps me sleep at night lol.

It's funny how you could get hurt by something totally unrelated to your life. And it didn't happen once but twice. It was like getting treated to a good sex by your husband and a a trip for two to a romantic place while he was having an extramarital affair. Quite an example it is. You were enjoying it but you exactly have no idea it was just for a ride. There is a saying that "What you don't know won't hurt you." And there is another saying that would totally oppose it, "The truth will set you free."

It was a fine day that time, got a bit worried about that stressed ktext and read on one column an advice, just didn't know why it rings a bell. It says, "A pretty good rule in life is the hardest thing to do is probably the right thing to do." Maybe it's just a coincidence or it's a sign lol. And when I came back home, that shocking news hit me hard. Ain't a pretty good liar, it sure did.

I kinda think maybe it's time to wake up and smell the coffee. Apparently there are people out there who would do anything for money. They don't care about you but just what you can do for them. Well it sucks really, a downright insult to one's intelligence. Maybe it's an alibi or not when I say I was already moving on, I have accepted it can never be then suddenly here we go again, them giving you a reason to be delusional.

But let us bring back the classic saying, "Walang mang-uuto kung walang magpapauto." Yes even those who use their head do get deceived by cunning thespians who deserved acting trophies.

A Call for Road Safety in the Philippines

It is a tragic sight to encounter every single day, the victims of vehicular accidents and this is pretty much a common find too when you read the newspaper or watch the news on TV.

In an article by Anna Barbara L. Lorenzo, dated October 13, 2010 entitled "Safety advocates reveal alarming number of road accidents in RP," it was mentioned there that about Fifty road accidents occur everyday. And this is the kind of statistics that most people can actually believe in because it is a rampant occurrence in the country.

I'm pretty much a laid back person with very minimal reaction or hardly shows aggression but when I'm on the road driving, most public vehicles and motorcycles are such a pain to deal with. They just pop instantly in front of your view without signalling and drivers don't even give a damn about others' safety if they don't seem to care about theirs. Add the fact that there are a lot of people who drink and drive.

Around May 2010, the global ambassadress of "Make Roads Safe campaign" Michelle Yeoh, went here in the Philippines to promote the advocacy. I would have loved to meet the famous Chinese actress and join the cause. But I do not think any improvement in our road safety had been noticed even after the event.

There are laws and politicians who recognize this alarming issue but the problem is the implementation. Honestly, I don't think we should completely rely on the enforcers but we should also do our part. Otherwise it's really a sad realization to find out that the Philippines' own citizens do not really care at all. Again it would all boil down to discipline because even if some would be more careful when they drive or cross the road, if not everyone practices the same kind of discipline then road accidents would still be rampant.

I would love to share legitimate statistics, sadly I haven't found any. I'd be happy to include that in my blog if anyone would send me links or data. Thank you in advance. Be safe everyone!

Fascination Over Jonas Villanueva

Let's Start with Jonas Villanueva's basketball career.

He played for the FEU Tamaraws in which he helped the University to claim its 19th UAAP Men's Basketball Championship in its 68th Season alongside now PBA superstars and San Miguel teammate Arwind Santos, Mark Isip, RJ Rizada, and Jeffrei Chan.

He was selected 9th Overall Pick during the 2008 PBA Rookie Draft by the San Miguel Beermen. He struggled as he played a backup role under long time veteran Olsen Racela. But then, he was promoted as the team's starting point guard when former no. 1 draft pick Mike Cortez fell into a season-ending injury and the team's long-time floor leader Olsen Racela's game starting to fade away.

In the 2008-09 PBA season, he was awarded the Most Improved Player award. He won the Fern-C Finals MVP honor after winning the 2009 PBA Fiesta Conference Championship with San Miguel.

(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jonas_Villanueva)

He is currently playing as the back-up point guard of B-Meg Derby Ace Llamados. I was actually surprised when I read that he was traded for Paul Artadi. But the news got me excited at the same time as I really find him a great guard aside from being good looking hehehe plus the fact that he'd be playing now for my favorite team ever since Coney Island days. So far this conference, he is averaging 12.4 points per game, 3.4 rebounds per game, 3.7 assists per game and 1.1 steals per game; pretty much an all around performance. It was a lopsided trade indeed for me, B-meg steals that one but some of the parokyanos of B-meg feel that Paul Artadi's luck and energy are quite a loss. Nonetheless, it doesn't matter as long as B-meg really benefited on what Jonas can bring to the table, better in terms of scoring and executing plays compared to Artadi . Besides his talent is not being utilized well by San Miguel Beermen anyway. It's evenmore exciting now to see B-meg playing in the flesh, hehe team gwapo composed of James Yap, PJ Simon, Kerby Raymundo, Marc Pingris, Roger Yap, Rico Maeirhofer, Jondan Salvador and of course Jonas Villanueva.

What Have I Got to Do

It's a lot easier when you've set your goals and all you gotta do is walk straight ahead. But when the path seems dim, when hope is diminished every minute as depression sets in response to the turn of events; you just get distracted. It becomes harder focusing on what you should have been doing. I gotta admit my past time which has become my addiction has helped me a lot to cope with the stress of my current situation. That for every tears I cried it had given me a break from it and gave me a reason to smile. How could I walk away from it so easily when what I should be taking is a road that makes me sick and what I'll be leaving is an abode of company and happiness? Though the unfamiliar yet exciting territory has been a roller coaster ride of emotions, it's pretty hard right now to miss a single day of this addiction. It has always been a question of where I went wrong to feel this unproductive with my life. Yes the current situation of me and my colleagues had been a harsh blow to us and yet have I just been sitting and waiting for fortune to come knocking at my door? Have I not been exerting enough effort to land an elusive job to busy myself with? These questions keep getting in my head most of the time and yet I can't seem to move my feet for a particular reason called happiness.

Katorse Madness

Yes I've been watching this show religiously to the extent that I even got mad when I missed half of the show after waking up so late. I remember behaving this way back in college, dorm days yes. Back then I wake myself through alarm and when I can't manage to wake up in time I even blamed my bestfriend who is also my roommate. It's a pretty stupid reaction to blame other people for your own mistakes but at times you really can't help it. A while ago I even blamed my mom, who is also watching Katorse by the way, "Why in the world did you not wake me up?" I know isn't it silly to displace your frustration to your own parent just because you couldn't blame yourself? I should really break this habit of displacing everytime I wake up in a bad mood. And look at Katorse being equated to my studies that's a big comparison, you can perfectly imagine how addicted I am to the show.

I could say the reason I got this addicted is because the story is well written, thumbs up for the writers for a job well done. Moreso, I have a crush on Enchong Dee and I find Erich Gonzales as a really great actress and their team up is "kakakilig." Their chemistry is really evident that's why I'm planning to watch their indie film "Paano Ko Sasabihin."

Aside from my personal reasons for watching, I think this is a great show that parents, teenagers should see because it is really an eye-opener. And for other viewers, Katorse is really entertaining. The scenes are exaggerated to provide entertainment because if in real life you have a son like Gabby and a daughter like Nene, I'm sure their parents would have died from heart attack already. Nonetheless there's too many lessons to be learned and personally I'm not a big fan of fantaseryes, I like shows that are realistic in sense. Yeah maybe that is why my other favorite show is Maalaala Mo Kaya.

I don't think what I wrote here is any different from the interviews they show about people saying that Katorse really provides lessons in life. In addition, whenever I watch this show I remember my highschool days, I was a very defiant girl. I say what I think is right regardless whether there would be people who would be hurt and I do whatever makes me happy even if my parents don't agree. I kind of see that in my younger brother who is already in highschool and having studied about our psychosocial development, I think it helped a lot for me to understand that I behaved normally. I used to think that I'm such a black sheep just like Gabby because I fought a lot with my dad because I'm such an outspoken person. Eventually that attitude changed, I have no idea what would have happened if I stayed at home back in college. Would I still engage in a verbal sparring against my dad everyday? But I can see now we don't fight that much anymore, I would say maturity played a heavy role on the transition and I think that is being shown in Katorse.

And by the way I am moved by Erich's acting, hopefully she gets an award. And I love Malou de Guzman as Aling Nena, she made me laugh and her heavy dramatic lines really hit me too. And to all the actors and actresses in the show, staff, director and writers, keep up the good work. You make us so happy with your masterpiece, Katorse.

Cheaters

Okay let's see what wikipedia has to say regarding cheating. Cheating is an act of lying, deception, fraud, trickery, imposture, or imposition. Cheating characteristically is employed to create an unfair advantage, usually in one's own interest, and often at the expense of others. Cheating implies the breaking of rules.

I was inspired to make a post regarding this after watching the movie Cheaters which is based on a true story. It made me wonder how these kids are doing right now. I've seen this movie once before, I think it was back in highschool. What they did is a clear deception to create an unfair advantage that eventually cost them a life of misery. I have no idea how they are doing now but you can imagine, would any school accept them after what they did? Or would any employer hire them after lying to so many people? And what a great shame that incident has brought them that I'm sure it had greatly affected their self-esteem.

Now, what about cheating boyfriends, girlfriends, or worse husband/wife? Hurting the people you love for the sake of pursuing personal gratification. Is it really worth the trouble?

And how about being a government official and cheating the people? Let's elaborate this one, a scenario of a corrupt politician, taking advantage of the people's money and trust. Why would one do it, because of greed, of course we are very much aware how money has the capacity to control people's mind and actions. Now how can these people fathom the idea of getting full while half of the country's men are dying of hunger and sickness? Are they any different from murderers who do not feel guilt in taking other people's lives? Actually, this would be a long story to look at as we may need to dig deeper than what we have already identified as a cause. We can include culture, system, people's principles because corruption runs from the top office to the lower ranks in the government. And even private companies and institution cannot escape the ghost of corruption. People in power seems like they really cannot handle what they bargained for; because if they can, they would never abuse what is vested upon them.

Moving on, another delicate scenario, cheating without knowing you are doing it or should I say dissent cheating,? I know, is that possible? Let's talk about the previous June 2007 nursing board leakage. I cannot be so sure that the test takers have no idea they were fed with leakage but I would give them the benefit of the doubt as I have experienced going to a review center and taking the board exam itself. So if I were in their place while I was reviewing I would have no idea that actual questions were already being given not until I see it with my own eyes which is when I am taking the real exam already. In this case this is a clear not consented cheating, you were made to cheat by other people. The only thing that bothers me is there are still people out there who wanted the leakage for themselves in order to pass when it is completely unnecessary. And I'm not saying this just because I made it without resorting to cheating but it is not a reason to cheat just because you lack self-esteem. Now if it turns out to be the reason then they are no different from the students in the Cheaters movie. We have seen the impact of the leakage, some patients question every nurse in a hospital what batch are they from only to find out if you belong to the controversial batch so they could ask for another nurse. Although this treatment died down along with the news, this incident had been imprinted in the history of Nursing in the Philippines. Now, are the people behind this happy after damaging the dignity and reputation of the june passers and even the rest of the nurses in the country?

What else is there to cheat, your passport, license, business permit, thesis, assignment, exam, forging signature, identity, bank account and many more may it be petty or huge.

And for whatever reason you have cheated, who do you actually think you have cheated on? The biggest person you have cheated that matters most is yourself. Did the fruit of your labor taste sweeter than you expected it to be? And how was the consequences of your action? Does it outweigh the prize after all? Or maybe you haven't been caught yet so you have no idea what you would have to face soon?

Cheating is such a temptation. Anybody and I mean everyone is prone to committing it as there will always be a point in time wherein we would think more for ourselves. But how do we deal with this temptation? We think hundred times, thousand times, nth time about what will happen eventually once the cat is let out of the bag? One precious thing you're going to break is trust, something so hard to earn yet so easy to lose. And we know that cheating will haunt us forever.